I usually try not to dwell on the past. What’s done is done, but I couldn’t help but to look back on the past year and feel happy with all that I have accomplished. It may not seem like much to someone else, but to me the past year has been life altering. I think I am finally beginning to grow up. I have begun to realize what is important to me and what priorities really are. I’m also learning to discipline myself to become a better person by pushing myself to be more reliable. That is a difficult thing to learn, and there is not a class here that teaches how to focus on being a better person.
I used to be someone who always could just get by, but now that doesn’t seem to be good enough for me. Each day I try to push myself to be a little better than the day before, but this is not easy. Especially since I have been the way I am for the past 24 years, and I think breaking old patterns can be a real obstacle to surmount.
The past year has shown me that I am capable of finishing school, which is something that I didn’t believe I could do, and it has shown me that I still have so much growing to do before I am satisfied with who I am. At this point right now I am changed for the better from who I was a year ago. That in itself is a great thing but is only a small aspect in the great big scheme of life. Changing myself on the inside is something that I am thankful that I am learning while I am relatively young. This change is something that marked a divergence in my narrow path. I am now going in a direction that seems more suited to me; I’m moving forward.