As children we all have a somewhat warped idea of our families, our friends and the world around us. But as years pass by truths are revealed, secrets are uncovered and a greater weight is put on our shoulders. I think I like the new responsibility, but I’m not quite sure how to handle it! I’m used to being “one of the kids” at family functions, but now I get to have something to say.This past week, getting older has really hit me hard. I lost two great aunts, whom I was very close to, and then welcomed a new cousin into the world! I realized for the first time in a while that my family just can’t always stay the same. I’ve gained a new respect for mortality and a new appreciation for my family tree and all the traditions it holds. I’ve learned that it is always a good time to say “I love you,” and that people should take advantage of every opportunity to spend time with those they hold dear.
Although getting older will surely have many pains in store for me, I know that it will also hold just as much joy and happiness. As I held my infant cousin, I was so excited because I now have the opportunity to watch someone else grow up! I thought about how this baby is nothing but promise right now, and I can’t wait to see where her life will take her. I hope that she learns quickly how crucial it is to see your family every little chance that you get, and that saying “I love you” is the most important thing in the world, especially since we never know what tomorrow may hold for us.
I may not exactly like the idea of getting older, but it’s something that I am learning to embrace. When we are faced with death, especially the deaths of close relatives, it’s easy to fall into a sadness, somewhat of a hole, where all we think about is how eventually everyone will pass away.
Instead of letting that hole eat me up, I’m going to pull myself out and appreciate everything that I do have. I have family, friends, new additions and memories to hold on to. I can still take pictures, give hugs and share laughs. I’m realizing that, hey, I’m twenty two; I’ve still got a whole lot of living to do.