Everybody’s mind works in different ways. Sometimes I feel like my mind is way out there. A lot of times I catch myself in class or at work thinking about what Maksim Chmerkovskiy and Kirstie Alley (my favorite “Dancing with the Stars” couple this season) are doing. I think about what I’m going to pack on my study abroad trip to England this summer and about the things I’m going to miss back home while I’m abroad, but then I remember I’m going to England, so it doesn’t matter. Then I wonder why do I think about these things? Trying to think about one thing at a time is impossible. It’s like Charlie Sheen said: if someone tried to take his brain and tried to figure it out, they never would, though I don’t think my mind is as bad as Charlie’s. At least I hope it isn’t.
School is always on my mind, which I cannot stand. No matter how much I try, it’s always there. Being an undecided student, I’m constantly trying to figure out what major I should go into. Everybody, and I mean everybody, always says it’s okay not knowing what to major in: it’s a chance to explore.
Well, I’m here to tell you it is anything but okay. It flat out sucks. I have always been a good student but never really cared for school, so I don’t want to explore my education. I just want to be done.
I’m not knocking education by any means. Education is a great thing to have, but I’m satisfied with the education I have. I just wish I knew that it was enough to get me through the rest of my life. I wish I knew where my path was going to take me.
I wonder if my shyness, my indecisiveness, and my introvert qualities are going to hold me back from doing great things, things that I want to do-or if I can get by with them or let them go or change them.
Could I be a best-selling author? Could I be the next favorite couple with Maksim Chmerkovskiy on “Dancing with the Stars”? In the perfect world, in my mind, heck, yes, that is going to happen! But it’s the outside world I need to be concerned about.
When I started writing this, I didn’t think it was mainly going to be about school. It’s amazing where my mind takes me; I went from “Dancing with the Stars” to Charlie Sheen to school and ended with my indecisiveness-all things that really have no connection to each other whatsoever.
I”ll finish with this: I don’t expect any of this to make any sense to anybody. As I wrote this, I just wrote whatever popped into my mind. My mind works in mysterious and weird ways that I don’t even want to try and figure out.